Posting about life's journey.... recovery, addiction, teaching, loving, parenting, holding on, letting go. Sometimes there are answers, some situations have no answers, despite my efforts, good or bad, right or wrong. Sometimes the sanity lies in the pounding out the feelings on the keyboard and purging my addict mind.
Monday, January 20, 2020
Becoming Unstoppable: the turn around
One caring adult. So many times I have seen this going around social media. I have always believed this and I have wanted to be that person for kids. But what about us? What about adults? This has been a dark and lonely highway this past year, and no cool wind came up. Just that hot Kansas wind that blows the heat around while not providing any relief. There I was. Lonely. Scorched. Desperate. My personal life spilling over to my professional life. So much disarray. Feeling helpless. Continuing to try to stay with the times, to be relevant, to get my life and career back on track. But I am flailing. and failing. miserably. I think about a fish out of water trying to flop back into the pond, but it's really in the back of a pickup truck, so no amount of flopping will give it freedom. And the poor thing can't breathe. That's me. I'm flopping around and trying to save myself, not knowing that it isn't within my power. And then. One caring adult happened. One caring person... helping me to remember my "why." One caring person, helping me focus on keeping students academically on track. One caring adult, helping me decipher expectations that I can't seem to understand or translate into language that I do understand. So the truth is.... I might still lose my job. But as I strive to get back to the teacher I once was....wait, to be honest and fair, once I get back on track, I will be a different teacher, not the old one. Once this change has a chance to take hold, I will be on the road to my one word: unstoppable. And no amount of hot July Kansas wind will be able to stop me. One caring adult = one teacher with fierce power and determination.
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Wow, Carrie! Powerful!
ReplyDeleteLOVE, LOVE, LOVE this! You are unstoppable and your determination is unmatched!
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