Posting about life's journey.... recovery, addiction, teaching, loving, parenting, holding on, letting go. Sometimes there are answers, some situations have no answers, despite my efforts, good or bad, right or wrong. Sometimes the sanity lies in the pounding out the feelings on the keyboard and purging my addict mind.
Saturday, April 4, 2020
It only takes a spark
This morning I am thinking about ALL the things. I woke up NOT encouraged and no glimmers of hope pulsing through my veins as it was yesterday. But I also have "Here Comes the Sun" going through my head. This overcast sky is killing my vibe. Ugh. But I have believed since this began that this tragedy/stand-still was an opportunity for me. A glorious opportunity. To write, to read, to craft, to discover, to clean, to sell, to move, to gain (and I am gaining, but just pounds, I am not gaining on the demons who lurk in the shadows). So there. In all of this lies a flicker. A tiny glimmer of the hope. Hope that today I will push onward. I will not give in the compulsion to sit in the chair and just watch life pass me by. I will be a participant. A reluctantly willing participant. I feel a kindling now. That spark seems to have lit something. A glowing swell of hope, anticipation and optimism.
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